Sometimes. [ He lifts a shoulder, not wanting to downplay how lucky he's been, really, with the B.P.R.D., his father and Kate, Liz and Abe and the others. He had a good family, for a while. Now.. he's not so sure. ]

I had a, uh.. relationship for a while. Twenty -- thirty? Years ago. She.. it was only for a couple of years. The press and the church groups, they gave her a lot of trouble for what she was doing with me. She didn't care, but.. [ He rubs his jaw with his fingertips. ] I did. Couldn't stand seeing what they did to her.